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The Tao of Rashad
Grant Wahl
April 13, 2005
Rashad McCants is at once stubborn and sensitive, indifferent and inspiring--and, above all, deeply desirous of having your trust
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April 13, 2005

The Tao Of Rashad

Rashad McCants is at once stubborn and sensitive, indifferent and inspiring--and, above all, deeply desirous of having your trust

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Elite ballplayers, as a rule, don't write much. Oh, they'll scribble: assembly-line autographs, college lecture notes, maybe an occasional warmed-over rap lyric. Generally speaking, though, Dear Diary introspection isn't part of the deal.

Unless you're North Carolina junior forward- guard Rashad McCants.

"I write whenever I feel like I'm too depressed to keep thinking about something," McCants says, brandishing a blue loose-leaf notebook. "So I put it on paper." One day this fall the best player on the nation's most talented team sat in his car, pulled out a pencil and spilled his emotions onto the page: His frustration over all those labels--moody, stone-faced, aloof--that swirl around him like storm clouds. His angst over being cut from the U.S. junior team last July even though its coach, Oklahoma's Kelvin Sampson, calls him "without question the best player at that camp." His chagrin over being regarded as Carolina's most dangerous threat ... and its biggest question mark.

The result, captured in letter-perfect script, is titled My Life:

Why is my life so hard, yet extremely easy? The things that I do are so easy to me that people make things hard just so it can be even. Well, everything is not fair. But right now as we speak I am the most criticized athlete ever. Feels like I'm under a microscope, everything I do someone has something to say as if they were waiting for a reaction. Just to see what I would do....

Do you trust Rashad McCants? Because he finally trusts you. Enough to share his most private thoughts. Enough to admit that, after denials for his first two seasons in Chapel Hill, he does care what you think of him. ("Always, always, always.") Enough to reveal that he's a stubborn but sensitive 20-year-old who's trying to change. "I want a kid to see my picture and smile, not frown," he says. In January 2004, after a wretched game against Kentucky, McCants came clean with Tar Heels coach Roy Williams: Coach, I need your trust if you want me to perform the way I can. "He gave it to me," says McCants, who went on to average 21.6 points for that season in the rough-and-tumble ACC, "and I gave him everything I got."

Now, perhaps, it's your turn.

By any measure North Carolina went into this season with all the parts to win Roy Williams's first national title: a jackrabbit point guard in Raymond Felton, a velvet-handed big man in Sean May, three capable seniors, an improved bench and a promising freshman class. Yet the linchpin--or, cynics would say, the grenade pin--was McCants. After battling former coach Matt Doherty as a freshman and chafing under Williams in the fall of 2003, McCants came into his own after New Year's '04, gunning more big shots than any Tar Heel in recent memory. Carolina's last 10 points to upset eventual '04 national champion Connecticut. A school-record-tying eight treys to sink Clemson. A series of daggers to sweep N.C. State.

"Rashad is such an offensive weapon that he's the guy the other coach talks about the most," says Williams. "He has an ability to score and make shots with people guarding him about as good as anybody I've ever had. But the other thing that's important with this team is his moodiness, his indifference, whatever you want to call it. Everybody told me it got so much better last year. Well, that's got to continue getting better."

McCants's Sphinx act would make him a dynamite poker player, but it can be maddening to his fellow Tar Heels. "Rashad is one of the coolest, most down-to-earth people I've ever met, but you have to know how to approach him," says May. "Some days he'll be upbeat, talkative, making fun of people--just how a teammate should be. Then other days he'll come into the locker room and not say anything. I've told him, 'We can't not know what to expect from you.' When you're not sure how someone's feeling or [whether] they're with you, you can't really trust them fully."

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