ADRIFT IN A SEA OF CHOICES
Gary Smith
October 21, 1985
Alexis Arguello once considered suicide as an escape from the contradictions and ambiguities that filled a rich life with betrayal and despair
"Archie Moore
and Chalky Wright won titles with no legs," adds Futch, who is training
Arguello again. "You can compensate with experience and tactics. I'll
monitor it more closely—I'll stop a fight quick if I have to."
Arguello:
"After I retired, deep down I think I wanted disaster. I didn't gain
control of my life until I lost everything. I've learned my lesson.
"I won't let
what happened to other boxers coming back happen to me. I know how to work
hard. I've shown too much class." He tenses all 10 fingers and strikes his
chest, the thump resounding as from a barrelful of wine. "I'm not like
Ali," he says. "I'm different."
One blue-skied
day, two months before his first comeback fight and a few hours after his
morning run, feeling flooded Arguello. His eyes shone with a happiness he
seemed almost afraid to share; his lips tried but could not bear to conceal
it.
"Something is
happening to me," he said.
What is it?
"No one can
understand but me."
Try to
explain.
"I cannot.
It's...it's a feeling."
Say it in
Spanish, said his wife. Maybe she could find a way to say it in English.

